Monday, March 21, 2011
, 8:16 PM
WOOOHOOO,
TWO TASKS DOWN, FEW MORE TO GO!
this week is gna help me set the right pace!
jiayou!
Sunday, March 20, 2011
, 2:48 AM
I have 15 mins before I have to start my revision for tmr's quiz. Hope I can finish the revision in time. Its been long since I'm behaving as such a last minute person. Seriously need some reflection upon this. It is horrible. Nonetheless, I really enjoyed this recess week if you ignore the stress felt by the mountain of incomplete tasks. I guess, the key is self discipline. Will be moving back to hall next week, so this will play a even greater part.
Things to complete:
1) Organic quiz
2) CS100 quiz
3) Formal lab report
4) Marketing case presentation
5) Matlab project
6) Marketing plan
You can do it.
anyways, yesterday was STEP UP RACE. I like the race singlet really!:D But I bet everyone's shirt is as smelly as mine. hahahah. Anyways, it was challenging to me, mainly the distance. thinking of covering 20+KM by foot, it seems so incredible to me. The greatest take-away other than the horrendous tan-line would be the experience with STEP DOWN!:D It is no doubt another great experience with rainbow (steven, wanrong, ella)
ok, 15 min up, talk about FOOT recce day and ASJAB trg next post:D
6 more days to FACom.
Sunday, March 06, 2011
, 11:30 AM
The incident passed. This moment, when everyone perceived it as history. Nonetheless, every part of the conversations were kept in my mind. Everything she said, and everything he said. I told everyone I will walk out of this, I am finally doing this today, the last sleepless night. This is the first time I want to write everything out. &also the last time I would carry these thoughts with me. It is not easy to forget definitely, but I will.
Rainbow falls apart. Just like the naive dreams in our hearts. Nomatter how pretty those days were, you will not take advantage of them. I was told the truth. I really didn't want to doubt, but i couldn't convince myself. I felt guilty at a certain point in time. I thought I were to blame for being less for who I was supposed to be. I thought I failed badly as a friend. I thought I made the rainbow dream shatter. I lost all the confidence in myself, in giving, in receiving. I took the step I would never had taken. For my conscious, for my people I held dearly. These sane understanding didn't help, for I tried to force myself to be someone I am not. I lied to myself over and over, trying to convince into putting in the trust.
I think I have no stance to make any judgement on both of you today. But perception cannot be denied. I really want to put in the trust, but I never fail to insert a doubtful mark each time. I guess it is time to let go. I can't bring myself to befriend you over again. I do not want to get closer. Both of you stay where you are, that is my utmost comfort place. It is not that I do not give my blessings. Just that I am so disgusted with the doubtful thoughts in my mind. I don't know why till this day there are still things to hide. If that is in you, I could only say that I was in the wrong to bother so much, to care so much less about the others who deserve. I understand friends come and go by. I do not hesitate to reciprocate the love I felt. Similarly, I will not condone my foolishness to spend my effort on someone like this. Maybe this feeling is a two-way thing. As much as you may not believe this, I really treated you from the bottom of my hearts. There were no regrets.
I hope, I really do, that you will not carry any regrets either. &I hope one day when you needed someone to be there for you, you have a person. Though I am sure I will not be the one.
, 11:12 AM
go confidently, nothing stops you.
needed some inspirational quotes to keep me going in the long night.
